In the morning when I rise, Give me Jesus, the song says.
With coffee this morning I pray for more love and more light.
It has been such a weird week with this World Vision thing – it feels like the home I came from is either being dragged through a fun house where the mirrors are all wobbly or it’s on a sea vessel in the middle of a big storm.
I don’t think even I realize how coming out from fundamentalism has transformed me and has given me new liberty papers. It’s so hard to watch the home I came from (evangelicalism) not follow my same journey on my same timeline. I should have more compassion and more understanding. It took me forever, and then only because people were brought into my life who helped me see light differently. My prayer is first that I won’t misuse my liberty papers the same way they are misusing theirs.
I have to trust and choose to believe that the foundations are shaken and the surprise will continue. Not only lgbt equality – that is a big step, but also in how we embrace and share Scripture. That’s a huge leap for a lot of people. We’ll get there.
So today I’ll pray. I won’t “just” pray. I’ll pray. For the Spirit to first love me and to shine more light and more love and help me speak a little better of my enemies. And even that sentence. I’ll pray, because these people are not my enemies. They are siblings in the family of God – and we are at a big disagreement right now and we don’t want to have table fellowship. So we all need a litlte more grace. Please God. And while i pray that, I will also pray, How long O Lord, and Lord have mercy.